I truly have no friends.
I thought they were people I could rely and trust…
But instead, they leave and abandon me.
I honestly don’t mean anything to them, huh?
Thanks for making me feel like a waste of time and space.
Thanks for making me feel worthless, talentless, low and uncaring.
But why should I care when you never did?
So let me fall into this pit of darkness to decay into nothing. Since that’s all you think I am. Nothing.
Thanks guys.
I see your face, and you see mine. But that’s all you see. The outer shell of me. You never had faith in me, and you always put me down, no matter how I felt. You don’t know me, after all these years. And all you do is insult, insult, and cause me so much pain.
You’re not a dad to me.
I may share your DNA, but you’re not my dad.
You are an asshole who only cares about yourself and no one else.
You put me down because you don’t have my mum to yell and scream and fight and insult at/with anymore.
It’s always silence in our house. We never talk, unless we’re fighting.
I don’t even know why you want me to live with you anymore.
I should just leave and never come back.
Change my name and face, so I never have to see anyone ever again.
I hate you.
You drove me to hate everyone around me.
You think you deserve all. But you don’t. You deserve nothing and I hope you get less.
So, “dad”, have a nice fucking life. ALONE.
I lost all my pity and care you for you. I can’t believe you guys were my “friends”.
Well, fuck you.
And good bye.
And to expect this overflow of emotions of anger and hatred… Did not work out as I planned.
Instead, all I felt was ache. This pain in my heart, it throbbed and squeezed. I almost started crying.
How we had something, and nothing at the same time.
How you meant something me, and I was just a toy for you.
What if I can’t forget you?
No matter how hard I try, you are always in my mind.
I try and try, but all I see is you.
Why?
What’s wrong with me?
I become a mute.
It’s something I have always planned on doing.
Simply because I hate everyone in my life and at school.
I cannot tolerate this ignorance and stupidity anymore.
I will just shut myself away from the world. Only to indulge myself with art and music.
Words have not gotten us anywhere in life. It only creates.
And those creations… Not always good.
I just don’t want to communicate with others through speaking anymore. I’m just giving it all up.
Who needs words anyways?
It’s saddening. How can you call yourself my “friends” if you won’t even stick by me? You leave in your own world and expect me to follow you.
Well, listen up.
You can just answer to my middle finger.
Don’t try to win me back either. YOU. SUCK.
it doesn’t seem to matter what you think anymore. It only matters what the other person thinks and believes. This is why there is so much hate and war. If you cannot simply understand that one person thinks differently from you is WRONG, how can you call yourself a person who loves and accepts everyone? It’s part being human. Nobody thinks the same way, or believes what you believe. Honestly, we should be able to accept different opinions and mind sets because it is an OPINION, not a proven fact.
It is a big disappointment when you have to be careful about what you say in public. I thought we had the right to freedom of speech? I guess not. Opinions are OPINIOINS. As in, A view Formed from something. NOT A FACT.
We are living in a world where opinions are wrong, and we are separated by those whom have a difference of it.
dreams that breathe out of our body,
slowly, so slow, as the Sun lives on
The Day. nothing but ice that
covers our Heart, that dark blanket
that covers the Soul. eyes closed in
Forever Darkness.
but may your eyes Open, for He who
calls upon us, we awaken from our Deadly Hell and
ravish through the moonLight. Chaos runs
through our Veins, Hatred gnaws
at our mind.
feel the blood that runs out of your
body, See your own Pain through
our eyes, and taste your own fear…
let it take over, feel the Insanity run
though Your Bones, up your Veins, and Inject into
your mind.
drip the Poison through your Veins, for that
is the only Way to stay Alive… or burn
By the moonlight’s side.
tear, rip, kill, drink, humanity is all gone, we live
just until Dawn.
now, your soul has been sold,
you will Never grow Old, your
story is Beginning to unfold,
Because now, you are eternally Cold.
3 Equality can never exist.
may those tears fall, to create what seems
that deep dark Ocean. sail The Seas
and search for Your treasure, the prize is
All you Want. blessed Treasure is the goal,
The goal in which your dreams will come true…
can you feel the winds? those Horrid screams
That penetrate your mind. the sting of cuts, the
Rush of Blood as it taints your eyes…
dive into the cove, fight your way to
your Destiny. so close, but so far,
breathes that heave into your body, may it
Be filled with fear and fright.
reach for the treasure, covered in gold and jewels,
perfection…
but then you see, “blessed” the treasure really be…
screams of pain, stabs of death,
In the moonlight, your name is suddenly
Gone.
Holding that Ruby Red Diamond, clutched in your
weakening hand…
for this Treasure you have found,
Is No treasure at
all.
a curse. You have Found…
and now, you are bound.
Oh.
My.
God.
I am SERIOUSLY disappointed in this fanbase, I really am.
So, just a quick summary, three guys (including Kellin Quinn) have decided to create a clothing line.
How awesome, right?
Well, they model the clothes and puts photos up on facebook… Kellin (of course) models some clothing and I just see “Oh, Kellin, do you come with the shirt?” or “Oh, how nice and sexy, I would pay for Kellin too.” And then there are other models…
“Quick suggestion… Stick to just Kellin for modeling. o_e”
If all you like is Kellin, GET THE FUCK OFF THE FACEBOOK PAGE. IT’S FOR CLOTHING.
Second, that guy who’s modeling, IS NOT UGLY. He has wicked hair. And again, you have problem with HIM modeling, GTFO the page.
You are really iggnorant and irritating.
Kellin wasn’t THE ONLY ONE who made the fucking clothes.
AND ALL YOU ARE FUCKING SAYING IS HOW YOU ONLY LIKE KELLIN BECAUSE HE IS ATTRACTIVE.
And on this track,
Sleeping With Sirens isn’t only Kellin. It’s a five man BAND. There are more people than just Kellin. AND GUESS WHAT?! THEY ARE ALL ATTRACTIVE, SWEET, FUNNY, AND TALENTED.
You don’t seem to see that Sleeping With Sirens wouldn’t really be Sleeping With Sirens anymore without the rest of the guys.
But you only seem to see Kellin.
Seriously guys? If you’re fans, show love to the other members.
Sleeping With Sirens saved my life, and I refuse to see their fanbase be raided by blind fans without a fight.
I still remember the time I would pick up the liquor bottle and razors. And I would turn up the music on my ipod so loud so no one could hear my groans or screams.
And I still remember, hearing in the distance, ‘I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone’ or ‘Don’t give up because you’re losing, you haven’t lost.’ Those moments made me put down what I had and listen. And cry.
Music is my saviour. The thing that was always there, with words, with sounds, with medicine to heal what had been cut and broken too many times.
This war I am fighting with others, and most importantly, myself, is something I constantly fear I will lose. Sometimes, I am taken down so deep with words and voices I don’t think I can surface back up.
But with music, like MCR or SWS, I know that no matter what, I can make it. I am walk this world alone, that I cannot give up for losing because I haven’t lost yet.
Music is my saviour, my guardian angel. And with it by my side, I can do anything.
And I have been for over 3 years now.
People don’t seem to understand why I love them. Sleeping With Sirens saved my life. I mean, not in the way of cutting but in a way where they took my mind off cutting whenever I wanted to go back, their words healed my broken heart, their words got me to openly say to myself “I’m not ugly or worthless. i’m not alone.” They taught me to kick someone out of my life if all they are going to do is use me.
Their songs reflect the pain I go through and get me singing and crying along to the songs.
I don’t just love Kellin, I love the whole band. They all create beautiful pieces of music that will always be in my heart.
Thank you Sleeping With Sirens. Thank you, so much.
